If you are a habitual liar you might also be a hater - hating without justification for it. Even if you are in company of people unlike all that who are influenced by light and not such dark forces, you can still stay like that. It can be like being caught in a vicious circle - you hate and lie and cannot be loving so you loathe yourself for it and get jealous towards those who seem to be free of it. What broke the cycle for me was being apart from my peers and while away hearing this preached in a public shopping place: "Christ died for you" Then being able to go into a church with the preacher and pray with him there and feel the power of God within me teaching me truthful speaking instead of lying and then going back to people of the light and learning to speak truthfully to them.
